"What's going on with your face????" - Yeah? What's going on with yours, asshole?

Yes, unfortunately, as women, we seem to have a habit of tearing each other down. We do this because we are seen as competition to each other.

Rather than building each other up and supporting each other, we pick each other over like old women do in the produce section..."Oh that one has dimpled skin....ew that one has a squishy side....oh that one has too many spots".

What is so funny to me, is we do this, as if the person we are talking about doesn't know they are a little squishy, or dimpled, or spotty.....

AND

The most INTERESTING thing I have found, is that it is NOT just women!!!! I have met a new species of male, I am REALLY thinking it is the ego-inflated alpha male that is in competition and has to just be better than EVERYONE. Yeah, I have an alpha male talking bad about me to my face. About my face LOL.

I think when you pose in front of a camera and are proud of your work, people make this assumption that you are or you THINK you are perfect. WRONG. I just like to act and pose as different characters in front of camera. Same thing being on stage. It is a passion.

I am a regular person who drinks too much, eats too much, has war wounds from the lil man, and occaisionally misses the sink when hockin up a good loogie...just like you.

So ever since having the lil man, duh, hormones change you, and for the past 9 years now, I have wrestled with acne on my face. BUM BUM BUUUUUUUM (dramatic music)!!!!!!!!

Yes, the dreaded adult onset acne or whatever the hell they call it. And this shit is staying, I swear. I have done about everything and been to just about everyone. I have done body cleanses and facials and had a doctor examine me from head to toe (ok, so that was just a benefit, wasn't REALLY to take care of the skin issue)....needless to say, it comes with this package.

I am not afraid or embarrassed to talk about it. I generally tell the photographers I work with upfront, I have skin issues. Let me know if that is a problem, because I understand what a pain in the ass photoshop can be.

So - I have skin issues. No it is not pleasant, but it is what it is.

POINT BEING!!!!!

I do not need Mr. Alpha Male coming up to me once a week or once every two weeks and saying all nice and friendly, "Hey Smitty, what's up?!!?!?!?!?!" And then proceeding to gesture to his face and go, "So what's going on with the face here?"

What the fuck do you say to that? "Hey fucktard, whats going on with YOUR face???"

Kind of hard to say that in a politically correct way.

Yeah so I smile politely and say honestly, "Yeah, I know, isn't it just terrible?" (and then proceed to bat my eyelashes like a good southern belle when talking to an alpha male....)

I have yet to figure out why the alpha male continues to bring up my face. Why is this an issue for him? I mean, is he hung up on me and THIS is the one thing that makes me undesirable and so he has to point it out so he is LESS hung up on me?

Or does he think I am egotistical and this is HIS way of "keeping me grounded"????

I am not exactly sure.

What I DO know for sure is:

I have skin issues...I have (gasp) adult onset acne!!!!!!!!

But it, like everything else, does not define who you are no matter what anyone says to you. You are more than what your face looks like, or ass looks like....

So....in conclusion,

I am not perfect, I have many issues, and alpha male can just take a big bite of fuck off and choke on it :)

(guess its a good thing he has never seen the stretch marks on my stomach then...)

LMS